Females as Property?

For a while I followed a yahoo group called Females as Property. In fact I asked a question to the group in which I tried to find out what I should do when I couldn’t get an answer from my husband whether to keep working or not. The general view was I should stop working but I felt their answers didn’t fit with my situation and when I raised objections, they got fed up with me – possibly fairly.

But the title of the group does interest me. I am excited by the idea of belonging to someone as property – maybe partly, as my husband suggests, because it is easier to have someone else make my decisions.

Am I the property of my clients? When I work, am I selling myself? I think that I am renting out my body for men to enjoy within limits. I think that to some extent my client owns me for that period. But he does not own me completely because he can only do what we agreed such as fuck me in the cunt or mouth – only my very best clients can use my ass.

I am turned on by the idea of serving men and I am therefore more likely to give my clients more room to use me than just agreed but I am not their property.

Because I like to be owned, I want to be the property of my husband. I want him to control me and make me serve him. That is why I want him to say if I work as a hooker or not. If he says “yes”, I work. If he says “no”, I stop. Trouble was, he said neither and I tried to interpret what he wanted.

At the end, we had a big argument and we agreed that I continue to work for the meantime. I believe he is still very turned on by being married to a hooker. But, we still do not agree on whether he owns me or not.

He argues that no matter what he says I have a brain of my own and while he can tell me what to do, he cannot tell me what to think. Ultimately, I can walk away and he thinks that I should have this freedom. He also argues that he is dependent on me for his happiness and so maybe we should say that he is my slave.

I argue that my life is to submit to him and that I am his slave. I need him completely. When he wants me, he can take me and use me.
Thinking of the Females as Property group, despite its intention, I think it supports my husband’s argument that people who seek to be masters are often not really in control. Most of the discussion seem to be how a master should control their slave, what are the rules and how should others treat someone’s slave. There is also a lot about slaves seeking new masters or more often masters seeking new slaves –often it seems that the slaves gave up their master of their own will and the masters lost their slaves unwillingly. So, who is in control?

My husband showed me one of the Gor books – “Slave Girls of Gor” – he pointed out how much work the men of Gor do to keep control of their women. Apart from the writing style which was pretty awful, I found the books a bit erotic because I imagined myself stripped and naked bowing before my husband.

But I have to concede that even though a lot of “masters” including some of my clients talk about control, the guys who seem most in control are the ones who come in and casually fuck me without thinking of how to dominate.

And, for me, my husband is the man with the most control. He is clever enough to keep me in love with him and still hungering for him sexually and emotionally despite all the other men who fuck me.

Thursday 16 August 2007 - 03:22PM (EST)