Lin

I have commented how little I know about Lin but I got more insight the other day and it is somewhat unsettling. . She came around for a threesome with John and me. I have always found it strange that she just walks in and says something like “John, Grace, can we have a fuck?” just as if she was asking for a cup of tea but I have found that everyone is different and just took it as her style.

John has been very busy and I know he is very tired and so this time, I said, “Maybe we should take it slowly this time and not wear John out”. Suddenly, John said “what’s the matter Lin?” and I looked at her and she was crying. “You don’t like me”, she said and John immediately asked “why would you think that? We all like you so much.” “You don’t want to fuck me” she said and by now was sobbing quite a lot. John said “Lin, that’s not at all what Grace said – she was just being protective, I’m older you know and can’t be as active as a young person like you.” “Do you like fucking me?” “Of course, I do and I know Grace enjoys sex with you so much, too. But, Lin it’s not just the fucking, we also like you as a person, you know.” Lin was calmer now but still clearly upset.

I could see the protective nature of John coming out – when he sees someone hurting – as clearly Lin was – he wants always to protect the person and he can gently comfort and draw the person out. I was watching what he so often does with me when I am most down – the gentle mix of listening and probing to isolate what is at the centre of things. I was actually getting very jealous of Lin as she demanded John’s attention. I am finding harder and harder to share him but I knew he was just trying to help Lin and he would pull back immediately if I objected – but that would have been cruel to Lin at this moment and I never want to seem cruel in John’s eyes – his approval means so much to me. However, Lin was not really opening up to John’s gentle probing.

Lin had let her very short dress ride up her legs and she was wearing no panties. She had come prepared to be fucked and she was not hiding it. We were all sitting on the sofa with Lin sitting between John and me. Lin’s hands slipped onto John’s crotch. John’s eyes caught mine – he was clearly uncomfortable by the way this was going but, despite myself, I nodded to him to let it be.

When Lin’s hand started stroking his crotch, I said that we had better move to the bedroom. John and I have a rule that if anything sexual is going to happen when our daughter is at home, it happens in the bedrooms. We don’t want our daughter stumbling in on it. (She knows not to walk into our bedroom without knocking and hearing us say come in.)

When we got into the bedroom, Lin immediately moved into fucking mode – the other times she has started by targeting me – first holding me and kissing me and then exploring my body with her tongue and we have a period of hot girl-girl sex with John as a spectator. Then we move on to him taking turns to deep throat him until finally Lin climbs on to him and guides his cock into her pussy. She rides him really hard and fast and often pulls him up and into different positions – the action is very fast and furious. When he comes, we both rush to lick his cock clean before returning to girl-girl fucking – and as I have said before Lin fucks hard. Usually Lin wants to go 2 or 3 rounds with both John and me.

This time however, Lin targeted John straight off, dropping to her knees, unzipping him and then starting to suck nim vigorously. I felt excluded but John sensed that and pulled me to him and pushed his hand to my pants and started playing with my pussy as we French-kissed. My pussy was quickly becoming wet as John stimulated my clit but Lin had pulled off her skirt and interrupted saying “John, I want you to fuck me like the cheap whore I am – fuck me hard and use me.”

I don’t think John really wanted to stop playing with me but I pulled back a bit to signal to go ahead and so John placed Lin on the bed, spread her legs and pushed into her with his cock which had become really hard under Lin’s sucking. He was fucking her hard and I moved into position over Lin’s face and placed my pussy over her mouth virtually forcing her to lick me which she did but with limited focus. She was focusing on John’s fucking her,

Lin was cumming – and this was not simulated – moaning and screaming, her body shaking. She was saying “Yes, fuck me – cum in me – use me – fuck my pussy – use your whore” etc so loudly I was worried that she would wake our daughter even though her room is some distance from ours. Her body was shaking with spasms of her climax and I could see that John had cum in her. It was very clear that Lin had really needed this fucking and for at least a bit she was satisfied – in fact, I was the only unsatisfied one.

As John pulled out, I could see the cum dribbling from Lin’s pussy but she made no move to go and clean up. I put my fingers onto her pussy and let the cum cover them – I then started to lick my fingers clean – I just wanted to assert my presence.

John lay down next to Lin and since she was still making no effort to clean herself, I licked her pussy cleaning off John’s cum. She did not respond even when I licked her clit. John waited until I had finished. He had tried gentle probing before but now he was quite firm and said”

“O.k. Lin, what’s going on. You come in demanding to be fucked, you burst into tears and then you fuck me like a slut pushing Grace to the side. We are all fond of you but we can’t be friends if you don’t let us in on what’s going on?”

“Friends?” Lim said suddenly. “Do you really think of me as a friend? I am a fuck object for you, John and Grace. I am a cheap piece of cunt that you can shove your cock into - and you even get me free!” There was clear anger there and I was surprised, Lin has always been so unemotional. John remained firm – I could tell he found this the best approach.

“That’s not fair – if you feel that I am using you then tell me what you want. If I want a fuck, I can always have Grace or Annette. I believed you wanted it too even though I hadn’t a clue why a gorgeous girl like you would want an old man like me - totally beyond me – I figured you wanted to have fun with my wonderful wife and found it better to include me. But I tell you, you never need to fuck me if you don’t want.”

“I’m not saying you forced me but I know that if I don’t give you pussy, you won’t want to know me and I need some friends – even if you all think of me as a cold bitch.” At this point she glared at me. John continued:

“We don’t think of you as cold or as a bitch, but it is hard to know where you’re coming from since you hide your feelings from us. And, you are always welcome at our place and I’ll promise not to fuck you any more – you can come just as a friend – I’m so glad that you value our friendship.”

“So, you don’t like fucking me?” I could almost feel John groan at the complete lack of logic in this statement but he continued in a calm but firm manner.

“Lin, I love fucking you but I seem also to be fucking you up –and that I don’t want – we value first as a friend then as a fuck-mate.”

“No-one values me as a friend – why would they – I am just a whore – if it weren’t for my pussy, I’d be dropped –that’s the way it is.”

I could tell John had a pretty clear idea of the whole story because he said, “Lin, I think we should all have a drink together and calm down. I am really glad you got mad at me and if you fell I’m using you, you just tell me – we’re all friends here – and you can always talk to Grace – I want us all to stay close – how about we all go to dinner, next week – how about Tuesday? Grace I think you’re not working that day? We’ll see if Annette can come too.”

Lin resisted and I was not happy even though I didn’t say anything but John was at his most assertive and would not take no for an answer. We had a drink together and John did most of the talking – a lot about school days and how miserable they were - to which Lin responded with a surprising level of agreement.

By the time Lin left, she seemed brighter than I have ever seen her and was quite chatty. John walked her to her car and when he came back, my jealousy spoke:

“So, one good fuck and you’re all over her”.

I didn’t expect the anger that I got from John.

“Sometimes Grace you can be fucking stupid. Can’t you see what’s in front of your eyes – do you really think I am after Lin. I have to talk to Annette – get out of my way.”

Annette had been resting in her room and John knocked gently on the door. Annette called out “ I’m awake but I don’t want to get in the middle of any arguments.”

John said “I don’t want that but I need to talk to you – and to you too Grace.”

Annette came out immediately – there was something in his voice that demanded attention.

When we were seated, John started talking:

“Grace, I’m really sorry I snapped but I am tired and Lin really troubled me. I could be wrong – I hope I am – but I have a horrible feeling that I am not. Grace, you remember that girl you told me about who worked with you and everyone thought was so calm and easy and then was found one day, having slit her wrists in the bath – well, I am horribly afraid that Lin could go that way.”

“She is exceedingly unstable. No-one gets that upset about me not wanting to fuck them.” (This, I disagree with – I would be even more upset than she was.)

Also, her calm is not natural and it is not a contented quiet – look at her eyes and she is so tense. Her compulsive obsession with being fucked and her belief that this is the only thing people want from her is unhealthy. She can’t reach out, she cannot tell even her closest friends what she feels – but she does feel very deeply.

“Every time I see her she is even more compulsive and when she broke down this time, it all fell into place. Annette, you mentioned how she said she was always felt out of it because she was the only Vietnamese at the school. You commented that the racism was real and she had always been excluded. I think she found the only way to get acceptance was through fucking. She has consistently for many years relied on offering herself up to people for sex as the only way to get friendship.”

“Even with you, Annette, she was always offering herself to you sexually to hold on. Then she was with that Mary girl and what I guess is that it was a prop but Mary was just so grim that she had to break away and now she is alone – truly alone and with absolutely no confidence to make friends, I see her as very vulnerable- she’s not a strong person like you, Grace. And, she nearly broke down completely today. Did you notice how she was shivering and shaking at one stage- and soon as we went into the bedroom, she immediately just turned to the only area she is confident and started sucking me.”

“If we are to be her friends, I believe we really need to reach out to her – and this may be a very thankless task. I think. If you think I am right, I need you two to help – I think I am not the right person to reach out – she needs good girlfriends but I probably need to help by proving men can like her without fucking her. So, Grace that’s why I was all over her and wanted dinner so much – we need to reach out for her”

The John stopped and looked at us, I said nothing – I was feeling really stupid – what John said seemed obvious after he said it – why hadn’t I picked up on it.

Annette said “john, I think you’re right – I feel so dumb – I should have seen how isolated she is – I have had it at the back of my mind but haven’t been thinking – and she is getting strange in an understated way. I will definitely come to dinner – can we have it somewhere easy to get to – I really am not up to a long walk.”

I then finally got my shame out of my mouth – “John, I am so sorry, I was just too stupidly jealous – I was blind to what you were doing - and why. But I have a horrible feeling you are right – I must reach out to her – if anything happens … She is just so sweet and beautiful. I will try to talk more to her at work – draw her out.”

John said “be careful – don’t push too much – sometimes getting things out into the open too abruptly can be very damaging – we must draw her in – not make her feel that we are banding together. That’s why I stopped talking about things in the bedroom and started on a drink – talking about my school problems – giving her room to express herself without being pushed.”

“On the way to the car, I commented that it is hard living alone and if she ever needs a chat, she should drop in – she then asked me if I was serious about never fucking her again and I said in a way that is between her and you two and her since you are my partners but that I had never said I didn’t want her sexually – just that I wanted her to be a friend. She asked if she could have a coffee with me sometimes and I couldn’t really say no. What do you feel, Grace?”

“John, I have to trust you. After all you trust me with F., the hunk and all the other guys and girls in my life. Of course, you can have coffee with her – and fuck her I guess – just don’t forget Annette and me – we need you.”

He laughed. “How can I forget you two. Don’t be so nervous: you know I love you and neither of you is exactly forgettable”.

We had to get to bed but when we were climbing into bed, I said to John “I am jealous – I can’t help it – please John could you fuck me- I know you are tired but I need to be fucked hard like you did Lin – I want to feel you need me and I can still please you and be your slut.” John said nothing but pushed me to my knees, unzipped and made me suck him until he was hard and then pushed me on to the bed and fucked me hard – every bit as hard as with Lin. I came immediately – it was so good to feel him using me with so much lust. By the time he came in me, I was satisfied and I kissed him passionately. I felt the love in that kiss and I felt suddenly a lot calmer and more ready to face the world including a truly troubled Lin who needs our friendship so much.

Tuesday 27 January 2009 - 04:25PM (EST)