Well – just an update

Not really solved my internet problem – it sort of works some of the time but I think there is only one solution – a new computer. But even if my computer stops, life does not.


Latest news:

Disappointed about how far I can get with Annie (the trannie I met) – we are still friends but she has made it clear she wants a man – she said if I got John back, she’d really like to try a 3some – but all I could ever be for her was an occasional fuck. And she is so hot … oh well.


John is still with Annette and I am losing hope of getting him back – Annette is doing everything to hold on – and I feel she is good for him. But I know I have lost so much – he was right for me in so many ways and I was so fucking stupid to let him go.


Still working: in fact more days now – so I am getting enough cock – no pussy though.


I have got a special client, F. who is really using me well. In many ways he reminds me of John – about the same age, a passion for hookers and attracted to Asians. He is the only client I meet outside the brothel. Each week, we have a 2-3 hour fuck session. Throughout he treats me like a complete whore – the way I wanted John to use me. He makes me show myself to him, please him – I have swallowed bucketloads of his cum already. I tell him how many men I have fucked and he calls me names and makes me feel completely slutty. I find I cum when he fucks me and I love the way he seems to strike the balance between using me and not hurting me. I am a slut for him and still safe. Her respects me implicitly while abusing me explicitly – don’t know if I make sense but I know what I mean. I wish it were John – I do miss him so – but then the advantage F. has is that he isn’t married to me and in fact is unhappily but permanently married to another woman and so ours is completely a whore-customer relationship.


Will write a bit more soon – pretty depressed about how things are going between me and my daughter – she keeps telling me she wants daddy and Annette. Fortunately, John is determined to keep her and me close together because he knows how much I love her.


Anyway, this is a brief update - tell more soon.


Kisses to all my friends,

G..


Friday 6 June 2008 - 04:45PM (EST)